Not Today

Getting back to what I LOVE TO DO because it makes me feel good & I DON'T CARE what everybody thinks or says about me anymore. If you like or love me, that's good. If you don't...I Don't care. End of story, period. Life is too short & too precious to be watching your life flash before your eyes at the age of 42. While getting ready to go to dinner Sat. Feb. 20th 2016 I had a heart attack. It started out like just a really bad panic attack but just kept getting worse & I told my husband "Let's go!". by the time we got to the er that was only 5 minutes away, I was in tears with pain & watching my whole entire life flash before me while trying to get out of my mouth to the er nurse what was going on while she started taking my vitals & putting a nitroglycerin under my tongue. I don't remember much of anything after that other than coming home Tues. and I'm just now realizing how close I came to death. It's all just now sinking in & my anxiety level has gone through the roof. So, since I can't do anything but just kick back & TRY to relax, I'm gonna do what I know makes me feel better & while doing that, try to keep a diary or journal of what I am thinking & feeling because I AM NOT DYING TODAY. Not today. I have way too many things on my bucket list to do that are still unchecked so I'll talk to yall later, I may be doing "nothing" but I've never been so busy in my whole entire life.